How to get over?

Today I've learnt a great lesson
from both my friends and myself
You once told me
"I always come first"
take care of myself before others.
Studies first before others.

Today,
I'm going to pour everything I am hiding in me out.
i'm going to tell everything.
In hope that it will make me feel better,
for now...

I don't know whether you know this or not.
But i still really love you.
alot....
I can see that you're having the time of your life.
sometimes i can still sit alone and smile,
thinking back the times i had with you.
I was in paradise.
I wanna thank you,
for giving me the time of my life.
You were my soul. And I was yours...

Yesterday,
I guess you made it clear..
I was no longer your someone.
just a no one...
But i guess if you had a choice before this.
I wouldnt be in option.
Just a friend i guess..
I remember asking for more time.
For me to prove myself to you.
I wanted all this,
because i never had the intention to leave,
only to love.

The smile will never come back.
I hope it does..
someday..
You still hold the record you know?
you made me smile the longest.
24-7

If I had made any mistakes,
any wrong doings,
or have said anything that might have hurt you,
I'm sorry....

sometimes,when i walk back those stairs.
Where we always sit together.
I smile =)
Knowing i once had those feelings.
I once had those loves.

It seems like if today was my last day...
You would'nt even cared
But as i said,
as long as you are happy ,
I am too =)

Study Hard, make your parents proud!
I always got your back,
you know that right?=)

Love,
Teddy